Author Archives: amyjohnsonross

July is Bereaved Parents Month. In these last days of July, I thought it would be good to reflect on where we are today. I find it hard to believe that 6 months have passed since the birth of our precious twin boys. January 28th, along with the months leading up to it, and theContinue reading “It is Well With My Soul”

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will comeContinue reading “A Celebration of Life”

This week has brought healing, tears, heartache and everything in between. As life unfolds after the excruciatingly painful loss of our sweet Caleb, humanity and love has been felt every step of the way. This week I wrote Caleb’s obituary. I put this off until the last second knowing it would be hard. I’ve decidedContinue reading “The Ripple Effect”

Gabriel has been doing so well in the NICU at Brenner’s. He is up to 4 pounds and 13 ounces! After regressing on bottle feeds a bit at Levine’s, he is back up to taking 30-40 mL by bottle! We are so proud of this sweet nugget. I spend my time visiting him just rockingContinue reading “Love and Healing”

We are so excited to share that Gabriel was transferred yesterday morning to Brenner Children’s Hospital in Winston Salem! We were able to pack our bags and come home after weeks of being away. It feels so good to be in your own space! The doctor and case worker at Levine didn’t expect things toContinue reading “Closer to Home”

Grieving the loss of a child is something I never thought I’d ever have to do. Saying the words in the last few days- “We lost one of our sons”…. it leaves you breathless. The deepest hurt, the most devastating experience, a piece of your soul being ripped away. We have laid in our Father’sContinue reading “Caleb’s Calling”

Today we experienced a pain that you cannot describe. A deep sadness that physically hurts and changes every fiber of your being. Today we had to let our sweet Caleb go. Early Thursday afternoon, we were told by doctors that the head ultrasound they did revealed that Caleb suffered a severe brain bleed, most likelyContinue reading “Our Heart Warrior Has Gained His Wings”

This blog has been very therapeutic for me. It has been a place to process the most difficult time in my life, to experience and celebrate strengthened faith, to pray, and to hope. But it has also been a place to be vulnerable, to be honest, to share pain, heartache, and weakness. Tonight I criedContinue reading “We Are Weak, But He Is Strong”

It is truly amazing to see these two precious, tiny boys who grew from a few cells to living, breathing babies. Just holding their hands, so small in our own hands, makes the miracle of life so much more real. We received these adorable onesies from one of Adam’s coworkers and his wife, who isContinue reading “Tiny Warriors”

This month will forever mean more to us than it ever has in the past. Many of us see awareness signs and graphics and briefly think about it and then move on. I am certainly guilty of this. It doesn’t hit home until the sign or graphic represents you or your child. We have learnedContinue reading “One Day at a Time”